Envious

That's what I am towards my sister this summer. I truly didn't realize it till today when she left to go to "UCLA", while I stay with the boys and babysit. Normally we're in it together and are suffering the battles of home together but this summer we're separate. She has an escape, something I was I had so bad. I know it's not good to feel this way towards someone but I hate how she leaves me with the boys. I'm always watching them even when we're out together. I love my brothers but I feel I will never get my break this summer. The only true release I have is this diary and reading. I'm happy she doesn't read this. Maybe one day I'll be able to tell her some of the stuff I write here. Maybe...