up & DOWN

I dont know why, but I've just been having mood swings a lot lately. I'm either super happy and yayeeeeeeeee about everything or highly down and upset. I hate this. Today I finally finished summer school and you'd think I'd be happy right? SIKE! The stupid ass bookstore there wouldn't buy back my book because it got wet. $70 dollars gone. This leads to my real problem this summer, MONEY. I'm nervous I won't be able to pay for school and it's stressing me out. Being able to go to UCSB has been the greatest thing to ever happen to me but it's so expensive. I don't want to spend any money this summer, which means I'm going no where. I really hope my loans go through and I win some scholarships, I'm stressing and it's not good. All the progress I made last summer when it came to dealing with stress better its slowly going away. I need to get a hold of myself. I need to find a new escape...