Tiring.

Thats the best way to describe how I feel about today. I first woke up at 4:45 to jog with my lil brother and it was honestly really nice and very helpful. He's my motivator!! So I wake up and watch The Increible Hulk with Fee and Khamal, it was bomb!! Things were going cool until my dad got home and started fucking things up!! Once he got home, Fee gets a text from maybe her only friend now in the valley and it leads her to the most depressing thing ever! I've never wanted to fuck someone else up so bad before. I was ready to fight and I'm not a fighter..I'm a NERD! ugh, but luckily Doeboi hit me up and helped me calm down. But then I started to think about it again and got mad again. But back to my evil dad, he stopped Afiya from being able to go to see Matthew although she lied and said it was for BSU. It's sad how much my dad is against everything Afiya seems to love. BSU gave her a voice. SMH. But he's tripping about us being able to plan things outside the house but not what to eat for dinner or things around the house. But my dad is the reason we plan things!! He said that we approach him so unorganized so we have to stay approaching him with sense. Trust, I have approached him with facts and more..it aint doing shit for my 19 y old ass. Yeah 19 and still can't go outside. I'm sad. And what kills me the most is he probably isn't going to let me go on the 8th. I'm in the FUCK IT & YOU, mindset. but its not my character so I'm still trying to relax. I hate being here. I'm ready to go back to UCSB!!