Different/Same

That's how today was for me.
Different:
I didn't have to wake up at 6:15 to get ready 4 summer school =D.
I had to make lunch for everyone.
I had a very open conversation with my ex and it didn't end bad. In fact we got a lot of things out in the open and I see him in a better light.
Same:
I stayed in the house all day.
I had to clean unwillingly.
My father still found a way to try and take over my summer. =(
I guess, no I KNOW this is the part that is getting under my skin. I feel that he's going to destroyed all the things I'm looking forward to next month. I will be so heartbroken and depressed if he says no to the 8th. I really need that day to go well in my life. UGH. But I can't help and feel helpless here at home, my dad will never change and I try to keep a good attitude but he is so good at fucking that up. My mom said it best, "You can't teach a dog new tricks." But I've changed. I hide alot of me when I am home and mom isn't around. If it wasn't for my brothers I would have did summer school in SB...wait if it wasn't for my brothers and the money. Well I'm done wining, hopefully he'll just say yes and not stress me to much when he tries teaching me how to drive...I doubt it tho.



p.s. i wrote this w/o my glasses so if i skipped a word of something looks funny it cause i cant see. sorry =D