venting

I miss him and what we did Sunday has fucked up my entire thinking process. It's so frustrating because I thought I was done with this. I didn't have those thoughts in my mind and now they won't go away. I hate the awkwardness and me not being able to actually be his friend. I hate that our friendship is one sided and he purposely makes it that way. I hate some much about us right now, especially the fact that there truly is no us. Someone shouldn't be able to just fuck up your whole mindset like that. ugh, I don't know anymore.